Yes we can !

Surprisingly going back to work two weeks ago wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. Thanks to the fact that I finally realized that being happy isn't a gift from above but can also be a state of mind. You've got to work hard to keep it going on your whole life but you can do it. Then as I know it's up to me to make my life happier or more exciting I now no longer feel so stuck in my life like I used to.

Zygaena seems to be dreaming of a better life, leave her job and find a getaway that could last longer than than. Marie-Net is back from her 6 months "meet the world' shift that seems to have given her serenity and joy. Some of us have recently jumped in the great adventure of being your own boss. Some of us then, don't even think of changing life...

Still, we all have dreams, and it's up to us to fulfill them. But few of us do cross the line, mostly because we're scared. Scared of the unknown land we might come accross. Scared of being deceived when it comes to face to dream itself. Scared of losing the security feeling of someone living a dumb life and day dreaming of being happy. Yes, I'm sure acting like doomed people gives us a reason to complain and in the end gives us an identity. Meanwhile being happy in this depressed society might turn you into a dangerous and suspicous predator in other people's eyes.

I remember that book I had bought to my mum which is called "feel the fear and do it anyway". It soon became her bedside book. It was about coping with your fears by accepting them and still do the things that you are scared of.

I've been dreaming for ages, of taking a year off  to travel around africa, south america or asia, but sometimes the choices you've made earlier got you stuck in a way that there's nothing you can't do to escape really. And as far as I'm concerned, I've got many material commitments that will prevent me from this sabbatical dream for a while.

But my dream is not dead though, because I've been also wishing to move to the US to work, one year, two years or more..., before settling in for my "adult" life. I don't want to find out when I'm 40 that it's too late to do so.

This week, I decided to take a step forward and after the disapointment of failing at getting the Green Card, I began to activate my network and cast my net as wide as I can by sending my CV to american contacts. The wheel has began to turn,...I am elligible for living my life.